Friday, May 22, 2009

Friendship

I love good friends. We all need them. Heavenly Father put us here on earth to learn and grow. Who better to do that with than our girl friends. My best friend from high school texted me the other night when there was some high stress going on and she was upset. She asked me why men can't handle the crying...and why can't they just give you a hug and tell you it will be okay. GOOD QUESTION!!! We are just different beings. So I thought about it for a minute and then sent back a text. I told her that that is why we have women. We can sympathize, comfort, hug, cry along with each other and so forth. Men aren't gonna get it! Though sometimes they learn to just understand that that is how we are! So, we call our girl friends, our sisters, and we talk about our woes.

How does Heavenly Father answer our prayers? In so many instances they are answered by our friends, our sisters. When we need a pick me up, a shoulder to cry on, a chocolate fix or just a listening ear, He sends us friends. He sends us earthly Angels to take care of us.

I remember when I had my first miscarriage...
I had been praying for a sister in our ward. I didn't understand her and I wanted to be able to love her the way our Father in Heaven loves her. So I had been praying. Then I had a miscarriage. TJ was about 6 months old or so. I cried and was a little upset but not nearly as emotional as I thought I would be. I seemed to be handling it pretty well. It snowed, and in Maine when it snows, it really snows! There was a knock at the door. This sister, for whom I had been praying, stood there with red roses in her hand. I welcomed her in and we chatted a bit and then she offered to shovel my driveway. I declined the offer but we were able to talk a bit more. This sister had been through numerous miscarriages and she knew how I felt. She came to bring me a little joy. She was my earthly Angel that day.

I am so thankful for the gospel of Jesus Christ in my life. If it weren't for the church I wouldn't have all of my wonderful friends here in Missouri.

Before we moved from Maine to Missouri I had been praying for a friend who could understand me and who shared my beliefs. I prayed constantly for that friend. Little did I know that I would be sent to Missouri to find her! I have so many wonderful church friends now and know that this is where I needed to be.

Have you gotten a hug, phone call or just a quick pick-me-up from your friend, your sister, today?

Cute Baby!







Ever get the blessing of hearing baby belly laughs? Well, if you haven't lately, go find a baby to listen to. It is so much fun! Colin was bouncing a bouncy ball and each time he did Alyssa broke into the most hysterical belly laughs.


Then he would bounce it again and...here come more belly laughs!





Such a cute baby!!! I am a little biased though! I need to take more pictures of the boys. They just get bored with me when I do it. But it is again time for new photos on the wall.

Thursday, May 14, 2009

My personality type!

I learned some things about myself last night. I took a personality test, the MyersBriggs, at a church Enrichment group night. It was fun. I learned that I am an introvert. Does that sound right to you? At first the results really disturbed me but my good friend Cheryl helped me understand it more clearly. Thanks Cheryl!

A ha! I realized that where I am comfortable I will talk, but where I am not comfortable I am silent.

I get picked on a lot. All my life I have been an "easy target", as some would say. I strongly dislike it. After many years of it I finally have learned how to stand my ground. Sometimes not so nicely!

It is very hard for me to talk to people I do not know. I don’t like large group settings. I don’t like to be the center of attention in group settings either. If I am going to be in a large setting I want to take someone with me. I then feel comfortable. If no one is available to come with me, I just don’t go. Or I am uncomfortable and nervous while there.

I realized why I talk so much to those I am the closest to. I am comfortable with them. I don’t talk otherwise. How weird! I am a situational extrovert. Fascinating!

This is just so interesting to me. I want to know more!

Todd is an extrovert. He very easily engages people in conversation and I stress about it. I hide my stress, but then I sweat! No joke! When I go to the Doctor’s office, which is rare, I sweat the entire time. I do not like talking to people I don’t know. Most of the time I feel like they don’t quite understand me; or they think that I’m a little strange. When I know a person and know that they love me for who I am, I am much more comfortable. I have a really hard time being wrong. I get very embarrassed if I am wrong. I used to hate being called on to talk in class when I was in school. Even though I am a smart person and did well in school I hated the pressure.

I am doing a lot of reflecting today. Love it! Yup...that is introverted! What a nut I am! I am starting to really think about my personality. What makes me who I am. We shall see where that takes me!

Wednesday, May 13, 2009

Good times!

WooHoo! I just broke the 150 mark!! I am so excited! This has been hard for me. Hard how, you ask? I hate not being able to just eat what I want, when I want. I have struggled with it. I am a muncher. I like sitting with a bag of chips and just munching. Which is totally bad. So, I eat lots of veggies and salads and then at the end of the day I have left over points so I can eat a FEW munchies. They are measured portions though. So, I'm doing it, but there are some things that I wish I could have, but I just won't allow myself to waste points on them. I can finally eat chocolate though and I have found that the fun size 3Musketeers bars are low in points. So I can have one or two and get my chocolate fix and move on.

Mother's Day has come and gone. This one was only eventful because I spoke in sacrament meeting. It was interesting. Todd left Saturday morning to go to Puerto Rico! He got in late that night, but on Sunday they were tourists. Oh...he has such a hard job! He is working during the days, but then they go out to eat, shopping, swimming on the beach, and who knows what else! My talk went really well. Thanks to Brother Sorrento and Cheyanne (our neighbor) who watched the boys, I was able to talk without worrying about the kids. Brother Helm had the pleasure of taking Alyssa for me. I truly believe that Heavenly Father blessed me that day. I didn't feel overwhelmed and stressed. It went smoothly. When others started to call to see how I was doing I realized how crazy it must have looked to everyone! But miraculously I felt at peace. Thank goodness. What a great blessing.

We are looking forward to going to Maine this summer. We will get to be there for three weeks. My best friend,Kristy, is getting married during that time. That will be fun. Juli is having back surgery and will be in pain, so we get to take care of her and entertain her. Then my grandmother will be there for a while too. It is going to be a good trip.

I am taking a rest today. I don't sleep well when Todd is away. I did better when he was gone more often, but am out of practice now. That doesn't mean I want him to be gone more again! We are contemplating adopting a dog so that I can deal with it better. When we were in Maine we had a husky named Malachi who made me feel so much safer with Todd away. Todd used to work in New York during the week and then could only come home on weekends. It has awful! That horrid job is part of why we moved to Missouri. Anyway...I thought that if we got a dog, after our trip to Maine, then it could make me feel more safe. We shall see!

The weather in Missouri has been mild lately. I love having the windows open and letting fresh air in.

Oh, last Friday I sanded, primed and painted Colin's and Max's room. It took all day. Colin helped paint and I took pix of him. He did a great job! Max helped a little too. Then Todd did the very top trim, because I was exhausted! Saturday morning, before Todd went to Puerto Rico, we moved the boys' bed and dressers into the room! Then we put up Alyssa's crib in the now empty room. All I need to do now is fix holes in Alyssa's wall, prime and paint. Then we move on to my room. It is the nastiest light yellow paint on half of the room and flowery wall paper on the other half. YUCK...with a capital Y! I am sure that will take me longer to do, but at least one room is complete!

The boys are really into these Bakugan toys. TJ has the most, but all the boys have a few. They are small round balls the size of a walnut. When you roll them onto the cards, which have metal inside, they pop open and reveal a creature. Each one has a power level. Anyway, they are really enjoying them.

School is almost over and soon we will be into Summer School. This is the first place I have ever been where it is something they encourage all students to attend. It is really fun. TJ is signed up to do the CSI class, Alex is in the Sports Medicine class and Colin will be in a class. Max won't be going because they will not provide a Para Professional for him. But that is just fine with me. Summer school is only half a day for four days a week. On the fourth day if they have had perfect attendance they are allowed to swim for free at the pool. The only downfall is that they have to be on the bus at 7:30am. That means I have to get up earlier. Another YUCK! But it will be good too. Colin will get familiar with the school and hopefully make some new friends. I can't believe he starts kindergarten in the fall. Holy Moly!

Alyssa is saying dadadada, and babababa. She is so cute. I find that I don't like putting her in the boys old clothes. I love putting her in girlie clothing. She is so cute in pink and purple. I like the cute little jeans they make for them and the little t-shirts. I don't do too frilly though. I can't stand anything too lacy. I am still a tom boy at heart! But I want my baby to be cute too. I tried some bows on a couple of Sundays but they just get in the way. So, we just settle for a cute dress. I love second hand shops too. Then I can get some of the cute name brand items at a very small cost. The other day I splurged and got an adorable pair of Gymboree jeans for her that cost me $7. That is a lot for me to spend. The most I usually spend is about $3.50 if it is in really good condition. And if it isn't really cute, I won't buy it.

Alyssa sits on her own, for the most part, and is eating little bits of food. She hates pureed food like apples and pears. So, we skipped the first baby food and we are doing table food. She is usually happy.

I'm going to go do some more laundry and clean the house. I need to get something done!

Wednesday, May 6, 2009

Being A Mommy!

I wrote this back in 2003 and sometimes I just have to read it and remind myself why I am a Mom and why I love it! If you have already read this before, sorry! But I needed it today!

Being a Mommy!
By Kara Cantwell
March 22, 2003

Life as a Mom has its many ups and downs. Just like everyday life, we Moms go through our rollercoaster days! But when you think about it, you realize that all of those nasty, awful days could never outweigh the wonderful ones. The days that you go to clean the mirrored sliding closet doors and you find tiny little finger prints that your little shadows have smeared with slobber or whatever food or lollipops they were eating, and you realize how precious those tiny little hands really are. They won’t stay small for long. Those silly little belly laughs that make you grin spontaneously are what keep you going from day to day. Hearing the imagination of an almost 5 year old amazes you because you realize that they hear everything that you say. There is nothing in the whole entire world more rewarding and more wonderful than being blessed every day with spirits from Heavenly Father. He didn’t send them to torment us, although some days we feel like He might have! He sent them to teach us. Are we like little children? That is what we need to be. My children get so excited to find that beautiful glowing ball in the sky at night. “Look, Look, Look, Momma.” they exclaim. And you had better answer them the first time because they will repeat it until you do. “What”, I say. To which they reply, “The Moon!” The many creations of this world constantly amaze those sparkling little eyes! Ever noticed how the smallest touch from Mom can calm them? God has put within us something that we may never understand, the power to sooth and comfort. A big grin from Mom can almost always put a quick smile on the face of a sad toddler. To hold a baby, to listen to the noises and babblings and sounds they are trying to make, to look deep into their eyes and feel of their love makes you feel as if you have almost caught a glimpse of the kind of unconditional love that the Savior, Jesus Christ has for each of us. When they climb onto your lap and put their tiny little arms around you and lay their head on your shoulder, you are bound to be moved by the warm feeling that tingles through your body. There is nothing in the whole world more wonderful than the blessing of being allowed to raise the beautiful spirits that Heavenly Father has given you. No one can ever explain to you before you become a Mom how it will affect your life. So, if you ever wonder if you will make it through this day, you will. Remember the awesome days, the moments in your life that sparkle in your memory. God gave us the bad so that we could appreciate the good. Here is your chance. On your bad day, be thankful for all of those wonderful, unexplainable moments with your children. I know Heavenly Father will bless us with more!